I have problem about putting trust on somebody. I can easily trust someone even though i never meet them. Yes, in Islam you've been taught to always having husnuzon, when you supposed to think good toward a person. But that doesn't mean to blindly trust someone, because you might end up getting killed in the dark alley. Now, do you remember when your mom used to tell you to not get into the car with stranger? Or taking anyone's candy from a stranger? Yeah, i forgot about all of those things when i'm older.
I used to think bad guy look like a bad guy (from the movie). Beard, suspicious looking, and scar on their face. But in modern era like today, bad guy doesn't look like how i pictured. They can be sweet, good looking, smart, and articulate person. Have you heard about Ted Bundy? Who would've thought young, handsome looking, smart, and articulate person like him murdered 30 women (probably more) in a very sadistic way. There is even so many real example of BAD GUY LOOKING LIKE A GOOD GUY but still i didn't learn.
What i'm trying to say is, i have to admit that most of the time, i forgot i can say "no" which make me ended up trusting someone blindly. I can say No, i don't want to meet you. No, i can't go there. No, i don't want to lie to my mother, etc etc.
I didn't say that everyone that i meet all bad guys. But since i am into i-can-go-thousand-miles-for-you-even though-i-never-meet-you and i am easily bored, sometimes i took it into the extreme way to feed my curiosity and end up being disappointed.
Even sometimes i trusted someone, and trying to be careful in every steps that i make, and the other person said, "So you don't trust me? After all this time?" or "You know what? We don't have to meet if you don't trust me", or even classic "You offended me by not trusting me". Ahem, i mean, if you really are trustworthy why are you so offended? You can just provide stuff that i need and be done with it without a lot of drama. Or maybe they really gonna kidnap you that's why they are easily offended. Hm.
I know its a mistakes by trusting people blindly and i thank God that i still ok now and not being harmed at all. I even learned this after so many times i blindly trusted someone. You know, trust is not something just born like that. You have to build trust. In my defense, it's not my fault i don't trust you, its you who doesn't make yourself trustworthy enough.
Now i'm looking so smart by saying this, but actually i have done so many stoopid stuff because i trust someone blindly.
One of the stupid mistake that i made was, i went thousand miles to a foreign land to meet someone, who doesn't even want to put his name on everything related to me. Because he said, that "i'm afraid that the company (where he put his name) might call my house phone and tell my father". It used to be make sense to me, but if i think now, that even i'm willing to go to a foreign land where i don't know anybody compared to someone just being afraid to get scolded by his father is utterly bullshit. Other that that, i have done so many other stupid things that i even too embarrassed to say it out loud.
Anyway, again, i don't know who read this stuff. Anybody. Really. I hope you can be smart in every steps that you make, and it would be very fundamental to teach your future kids about building trust on somebody and even on yourself to be trusted by somebody else. Especially in the modern era like today, in hookup culture, where you can meet someone as easy as just "swipe right".